Sorry I can't be perfect...

#10
What a day...
I was asked to perform with the bleachers the last time....
But when I played with them,
I felt unwelcome....
And I thought of something...

I lost it all

Nothing lasts forever..

I'm sorry,

I can't be perfect....

Well...

I tried hard...

and just pretended to be alright...

I know I wasn't the member the bleachers want...

I just caused them trouble...

I'll never be good enough join them...

I can't stand another fight with my emotions...

Nothings gonna make this right again...

Please don't turn your backs..

It's hard just to talk to you guys...

but you don't understand....

I try not to think about the pain I feel...

Nothing's alright.....

The main reason I quit is actually because of me...

I feel like I'm the one backing them from getting their goals...

It's all because of me...

And you all of you hate me...

#TBH

I miss the old days...

That's all for this post...

Please don't forgive me for the burden I've caused...

Peace?

Crappy actors everywhere...

#9
WHAT THE HELL?!?!
And I thought we were friends...
WHY?!
 I HATE YOU NOW!
Now I know the truth...
How stupid of me..
Who knew...you were just using me all this time...
Just because we wanted to quit the bleachers...
and you just wanted company...
You were wearing a damn fucking mask all this time...
And I did what you wanted just not to hurt your feelings..
Guess what?

We're both actors on a stage

Well..

sometimes the sickness is the cure..

And YOU!

I thought we were on the same team... :'(

But but but...

looks can be deceiving zzz

well...

my bad..

I shouldn't judge people...

If shutting my yappy mouth can reduce problems..

I'll seal it forever...

Or maybe ending my existence can help more?...

I've found a reason to show

a sign of me you didn't know

A reason for all that I do...

And the reason is YOU......

Well..
Every lesson forms a new scar...

 

誰も私を好きではない....

Hi again..

#8
Well..
It's been awhile since I updated this ditty...
And shitty things happened today in school..
URGH
can high school get any worse...
I'm that someone who gets played and bullied around..
WTF seriously?
I hate them.
And I'm here. Doing this ditty.
POINTLESS zzz 
Shitty life..
Well..reality it is :)
Nobody has the fucking time to care about you emo-ing
They have their own business to do..
Like...
Fucking in the toilet..(that does happen in my school :/)
Well...zzzZZZ

Desperate,

but not hopeless.

What the fuck, right? ._.

This post is getting awkward..

uh...

Bye..

Peace :/